That Thing They Call "Unemployment"

TL;DR: I'm "unemployed", I'm looking to land a position as a director of development or similar kind of development management role; I'm ridiculously busy in the meantime.

My employer, after having suffered the loss of close to a quarter of its consultant workforce on a single project when that project chose to "re-examine its current approach", has decided that (not surprisingly) given the blow to its current cash flow, it's a little expensive keeping an architectural consultant of my caliber on staff, particularly since it seems to me they don't appear to have the projects lined up for all these people to go. Today was my last day, the paperwork and final check are processing through the system, there were no tears nor angry accusations from either side, and tomorrow I get to wake up "unemployed".

It's a funny word, that word "unemployed", because it indicates both a state of emotion and existence that I don't really share. On the emotional front, I'm not upset. A number of people expressed condolences ("I'm so sorry, Ted"), but frankly, I'm not angry, upset, hurt, or any of those other emotions that so often come with that. Part of my reaction stems from the fact that I've been expecting this for a while--the company and I had lots of plans in the beginning of my tenure there, but those plans more or less never got past the planning stage, and the focus was clearly always on billability, which at the level I'm at usually implies travel, something I'm not willing to commit to at the 80%/100% level that consulting clients often demand. We just grew apart, the company and I, and I think we've both known it for a few months now; this is just putting the signatures on the divorce and splitting up the CD collection. On the "existence" front, unemployment often means "waking up with nothing to do" and "no more money coming in", which, honestly, doesn't really apply, either. While I'm not going to be drawing a salary on a twice-monthly basis like I was for the last twenty months, it's not like I have no income coming in or nothing to do: I've got my columns with MSDN, CoDe, and Oracle TechNet, I've got two conferences this month (33rd Degree in Warsaw, and VSLive! in Vegas) I've got a contract in place for doing some content work and research for JetBrains on MPS, their language workbench, and I've just commissioned a course with PluralSight, "JVM Fundamentals", which will essentially be an amalgamation of the conference talks I did at NFJS over the past five or six years (ClassLoaders, threading and concurrency, collections, and so on), with a few more PluralSight courses and JetBrains articles/vidcasts/etc sketched out after that. If I'm "unemployed", then it's the busiest damn unemployment I've ever heard of.

And in all honesty, this enforced change on my career is not unwelcome--I've been thinking now for the past few months that it's time for me to challenge myself again, and the chosen challenge I've laid out for myself is to run a team, not an architecture. I want to find a position where I can take a team, throw us at a project, and produce something awesome... or at least acceptable... to the customer. After so many years of making fun of managers at conferences and such, I find myself wanting to become one. I'm not naive, I know this isn't all rainbows and unicorns, and that there will be times I just want to go back to the editor and write code because at least code is deterministic (most of the time), but it's an entirely new set of challenges, and frankly, I've been bored the last few years, I just have to admit that out loud. And I may not like it and in a year or two say to myself, "What was I THINKING?!?", but at least I'll have given it a shot, gotten the experience, and learned a few new things. And it's not like I'm going to give up technology completely, because I'm still going to be writing, blogging, recording, speaking, and researching. I don't think I could give that up if I tried.

So if you know of a company in the Greater Seattle area that's looking for someone who's got a ton of technical skills and an intuitive sense of people to run a development team, drop me a note. Oh, and don't be too surprised if the website gets a face lift in the next month or two--the design is a little old, and I want to play around with Bootstrap and some static-HTML-plus-Javascript kinds of design/development. Should be fun, in all my copious spare time...